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the new me? current song: no music, just the prophetic mutterings of a samurai looking at the kabbalic tree of life. song i would be playing: fade away by blur they stumbled into their lives in a vague way became man and wife one got the other they deserved one another they settled in a brand new town with people from the same background they kept themselves busy long hours left them dizzy now when he's in she's out all you ever do is fade away all you ever do is fade away he's not making plans cause now they understand all you ever do is fade away he noticed he had visible lines she worried about her behind their birth had been the death of them it didn't really bother them now when she's in he's out all you ever do is fade away all you ever do is fade away she's not making plans cause now she understands all you ever do is fade away when he's in she's... all you ever do is fade away all you ever do is fade away they're not making plans cause now they understand he must learn to forget cause this is all you'll ever get all you ever do is fade away hi. my name is lindsay. i'm going to be 22 in a month. i'm now married. i'm going to school to be an emergency medical technician, or emt for short. i quit my job, so i can focus on my studies, and because i hated it. i don't do much, i've got no t.v. and no internet, and i don't play video games as much as i used to. i'm role-playing, but not much. i'm a domestic engineer right now, and i think that women shouldn't have fucked up such a good thing with women's lib. i say that in jest; please don't fill my guestbook in anger. i bought a new car, since i killed the kia. it's a cute little honda. i'm still tired a lot, my hands are still always cold, and my eyes are still always blurry. some things just don't change, ever. as you all can see by the timestamp on this post, i still stay up rather late; however i do go to bed at a reasonable hour, and get up rather early for someone such as myself. lately it's been 3 to 11 or 4 to 12. i've done the same thing i've always done. i filled my new life with new people and new places and new things, and i've changed myself again. as i get older, i've found that adapting is easy, but assimilation is damn near impossible. fortunately, these new people are all very much like the me i've been for quite some time now, and i don't have to worry about entirely changing. will this be the last mask? i can only pray. i'm still a hedgehog. i still hurt the ones i bring close. the only one i've brought close as of yet is my husband, and it seems he's got quills of his own. i guess that makes us even. so i'm closing now. if you know me and you still want to talk to me, you know my email address. it's been the same thing since i was 15. drop me a line or something, though i don't know how often it will be for a little bit. i'm on a friend's computer now, but i should be getting wifi in a month or so. time beats its great drum in a sickeningly steady rhythm. march, doubletime, or hang on for the ride, kids. you'll all learn your places - i think i have. ~*~ immediate yesterday. ~*~ divination. ~*~ get your own guestbook here |
