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candy necklaces and secrets. current song: reptilia by the strokes he seemed impressed by the way you came in tell us a story i know you're not boring i was afraid that you would not insist you sound so sleepy just take this, now leave me i said please don't slow me down if i'm going too fast you're in a strange part of our town... yeah, the night's not over you're not trying hard enough our lives are changing lanes you ran me off the road the wait is over i'm now taking over you're no longer laughing i'm not drowning fast enough now every time that i look at myself i thought i told you this world is not for you the room is on fire as she's fixing her hair you sound so angry just calm down you found me i said please don't slow me down if i'm going too fast you're in a strange part of our town... yeah, the night's not over you're not trying hard enough our lives are changing lanes you ran me off the road the wait is over i'm now taking over you're no longer laughing i'm not drowning fast enough i'm getting too old for this. i'm dicking around still, and if i fuck this up, then... i hate last chances. i hate no other options. and i especially hate learning from my "mistakes"...because i don't want to call them mistakes. they're not. they're choices, damn it, and they're mine. it shouldn't matter if they're good or bad or whatever. but i'm getting old, and i'm getting to the point where i have to be responsible. i'm so tired of growing up. i've been grown up since i was 3, at least. i want to be a child, i want to have fun. i want someone to take care of me, instead of me taking care of them. i want to be able to tell people things, and talk about my life, and give up all the secrets that i keep piled on my shoulders. i think i need to see a shrink. maybe he'll stick me on some meds...a candy necklace of maybe some halidol and valium and klonopin would be rather tasty indeed. better living through chemistry, i always say. or maybe i need to get off the darvocets. self-medicating is never a good idea. time for bed. ~*~ immediate yesterday. ~*~ divination. ~*~ get your own guestbook here |
