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burnt out? current song: capital g by nine inch nails. i pushed the button and elected him to office and he pushed the button and he dropped the bomb you pushed the button and could watch in on the television those motherfuckers didn't last too long i'm sick of hearing about the have and have nots have some personal accountability the biggest problem with the way that we are doing things is the more we let you have the less that i'll be keeping for me well i used to stand for something now i'm on my hands and knees turning in my god for this one and he signs his name with a capital G don't give a shit about the temperature in guatemala don't really see what all the fuss is about ain't gonna worry about no future generations and i'm sure somebody's gonna figure it out don't try to tell me that some power can corrupt a person you haven't had enough to know what its like you're only angry cause you wish you were in my position now nod your head cause you know that i'm right alright well i used to stand for something but forgot what that could be there's a lot of me inside you maybe you're afraid to see well i used to stand for something now i'm on my hands and knees turning in my god for this one and he signs his name with a capital G unfortunately, my true nature has overridden everything else again, and i'm sad to say that i hate my job. it's been a tough realization over the last week; i remember back to when i was fresh faced and new and still wide-eyed with excitement about my job. i remember when the back of my ambulance felt like home. and now... now i know it. i'm already burnt out. maybe this is just a phase i'm going through. maybe i'm just a little crispy now, and my being forced back to day car is a good thing. i'll make more money, i won't have to work so many hours. i won't have that much time off anyways, so i won't feel it necessary to be at work all of the time. i'm going to miss the hell out of having ryan for a partner, but oh well. or maybe i'll be the next ray or stacy - someone who is so bitter and burnt out that they really are just a warm body in a truck. they're essentially a carpet deliveryman, just picking things up and dropping them off. i know it won't come to that, though. if i don't feel better in a couple of weeks then i'm done, no ifs, ands, or buts. ~*~ immediate yesterday. ~*~ divination. ~*~ get your own guestbook here |
