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a political rant...i know, not my style.
2008-11-04, 3:17 a.m.

current mood: better than i've been in a while now.

current song: time to pretend by mgmt...i must say that this whole album is candy.

i'm feeling rough i'm feeling raw i'm in the prime of my life
let's make some music make some money find some models for wives
i'll move to paris shoot some heroin, and fuck with the stars
you man the island and the cocaine and the elegant cars

this is our decision
to live fast and die young
we've got the vision now let's have some fun
yeah it's overwhelming
but what else can we do
get jobs in offices and wake up for the morning commute

forget about our mothers and our friends
we're fated to pretend

i'll miss the playgrounds and the animals and digging up worms
i'll miss the comfort of my mother and the weight of the world
i'll miss my sister miss my father miss my dog and my home
yeah i'll miss the boredom and the freedom and the time spent alone

there's really nothing
nothing we can do
love must be forgotten
life can always start up anew
the models will have children
we'll get a divorce
we'll find some more models
everything must run its course

we'll choke on our vomit and that will be the end
we were fated to pretend

it's been 62 days, and i'd almost forgotten about my little diary here. then, as i was dicking around online, i decided to google myself, and up popped my d'land. some poem i'd written ages ago and posted for all none of my faithful readers to digest.

i've been sitting here and watching the world through a clouded lens; paralyzed by the fog i'd created for myself. you see, it's much easier to sit back and let the room fill up with your problems than to get off your ass and clear them out. i've been waiting for someone to come along to turn the fan on for me, not thinking about the fact that no one was coming to save me. not that my friends don't love me, but that's not their job. so, i got up, and i started dealing with things.

tomorrow (today, really) is a day too important to let slip through my fingers. today i get to excersize my right as an american, and vote.

i'm sure it's strange to some of you to hear me speak with patriotic ferver. i know it seems as though i don't get excited about these types of things, because usually i keep it to myself. however, this election is entirely too important to let slip by. i have a hard on for the political process.

it's not because of who is running, though the candidates have their own importance, which i'll get to. it's the state of the union that makes this such a historical and unique race. with the u.s. economy slipping along with the rest of the world, our foreign policies lackluster at best and bordering on criminal at worst, government spending out of control, and a general state of malcontent spreading through the american people, there is a lot riding on our future choice of leadership. and honestly, it seems that through most of this electorate race, there have been so many distractions thrown up that had the stock market not taken a shit no one would have concentrated on the real issues at hand. i'm being serious here. this is my serious face.

the problem that i have is that neither the republican nor the democratic candidates have the answers to all the problems.

the real task lies in choosing the lesser of two evils, so to speak. senator mccain seems out of touch with the issues at hand, and lacks any real solutions to deal with them. senator obama, as far as i can tell, has spouted out numbers which i feel cannot be compared and have no bearing to the situation.

yes, i watch fox news before i go to work, then i listen to glen beck. rush comes on after that, and when he finishes, i go to cnn radio. i read a number of blogs a day - everything from the daily kos to the drudge report, along with standard news outlets from all over the world. i honestly try to balance my opinion with everything i can, from the "drive-by media" to the "neocon crap". fiscally, i'm conservative. socally, i'm conservative. but, conservative does not mean republican, just as liberal does not mean democrat. i'm pro-gun rights and pro-death penalty; i'm pro-chioce and pro-gay rights.

i'm conceding here that no one has the answers. no one person, party, or entity is correct. the most clear problem i see is that when one party gains control of ALL our checks and balances - as in the senate, house, and president - is when the clear problems arise.

i'm still undecided as to what i should truly do. i'm scared most of electing senator mccain because i believe that governor palin would do irreparable damage to this country if she were in charge. and senator obama is entirely too liberal for my tastes, and electing him would leave the country in the hands of a democratic congress and presidency.

but, though it makes me cringe a little to say it, i think barack obama has some really good ideas. some. they lack the substance i look for in a proposal, and i don't agree with many of his policies.

the true problem at the heart of the matter for me is that i don't know who to trust. i don't mean just politically - i mean throughout the nation. it seems that a vast majority of our leaders in all fields have been lying to us through their teeth while laughing to the bank. and washington is a good-ol'-boys' club, which i feel that neither one african-american man, nor one woman will be able to crack through in four years. eight, maybe. it's not about racism or sexism for me to say that at all - i'm a woman, after all. it's about the system, and other peoples' prejudices, and the general state of the united states of america. i can say whatever i want because of the first amendment, whether or not you like it.

i know who i'm voting for now. but it doesn't matter. what matters is that either way, someone has a fight ahead of them, and i can only hope that the leader that is elected can fight the good fight, so to speak. i hope they're strong enough to be able to take on the tasks in front of them. because, whoever it is, if they falter under the pressure, then we're all screwed.

just get out there and vote, people.

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