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i love my job, for once! current song: silver and cold by afi. i came here by day but i left here in darkness and found you on the way and now it is silver and silent it is silver and cold you in somber resplendence i hold your sin's into me oh my beautiful one your sin's into me as a rapturous voice escapes i will tremble a prayer and i'll beg for forgiveness your sin's into me oh my beautiful one light like the flutter of wings feel your hollow voice rushing into me as you're longing to sing so i will paint you in silver i will wrap you in cold i will lift up your voice as i sink your sin's into me oh my beautiful one now your sin's into me as a rapturous voice escapes i will tremble a prayer and i'll beg for forgiveness your sin's into me cold in life's throws i'll fall asleep for you cold in life's throws i only ask you turn away cold in life's throws i'll fall asleep for you cold in life's throws i only ask you turn as they seep into me oh my beautiful one now your sin's into me oh my beautiful one your sin's into me as a rapturous voice escapes i will tremble a prayer and i'll beg for forgiveness your sin's into me oh my beautiful one speaking of eric, he's out again tomorrow, and i'm wondering who i'll be working with. i can only hope it's someone i like. i toyed with the idea that no one had picked up 13 and they'd put me there for the day, but i can't see them putting a non-driver on the only als day car. it would have been fun, and we could have been iv stick bitches all day, but there's no way they'd make 13 no als transport. not being able to drive sucks. god i hope i don't get someone who sucks... tried to fix things tonight, but didn't get the chance to say anything. i'm a timing person when it comes to confrontation, and i didn't see a window...ok, so i'm a pussy. i don't like to ask things of people. i just give until i burn out. it's like what's happening with me and jeremy right now. he takes a lot of upkeep. i could have gotten two puppies and they'd be easier to take care of then the boys i spend all my time with. had a blast yesterday, with carin. unit 17 was life squad sexy for the day. had a couple of county calls, and a couple of gorkers; no one heavy, insane, dead, or a pain in the ass. it was an easy day. i occasionally like having a partner that cheryl likes. don't get me wrong - we got ran around town all day like bitches, but it was all good. carin and i did elevator dances and code 3 dances and sang songs and tried to be professional when we had patients. i desperately want a t-shirt that say s "i <3 code 3". guess i'm still a n00b volley dork on the inside. i don't know. code 3 is exciting and hectic and scary and neat. i can't imagine being a medic or even just being on a 24...the adrenaline might make my hypertensive tachycardic little body explode. i've already decided that i'm going to medic school, once i officially get the hang of things and i've got plenty of road experience. i wasn't sure about this job for a while, but now i don't think that i could ever give it up. the pay sucks, the hours suck, and the patients also more often than not suck. but i love every minute of it. i guess i like pain. but at any rate... i'm going to try and get some sleep now in case they call me at 5 in the morning to tell me to go to another station or something. i hope they don't tell me not to come in; i need the moneys and i just don't want to take the day off. how sad is that? i don't want to take the day off. i would have killed to have the day off for no reason back when i wasn't an emt. hell, most of the time i don't mind getting off late. i'm such a fucking n00b still. i know, don't tell me; i'll get over enjoying all these things. hey, at least i'm not dumb enough to like filling out run reports... ~*~ immediate yesterday. ~*~ divination. ~*~ get your own guestbook here |
